Thursday, October 25, 2012

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Thanks Sebastian!

He is doing such an amazing job! and all of you that have participated, WOW, I am honored! Such great memories. You all are so nice to me! I just love ya!

Sunday, October 14, 2012


 One year ago today, I had my mammogram, and got the devastating news that I had Breast Cancer. WOW, what a year it has been!!! This day started it all off, with ultrasounds, biopsies, CAT scans, MRI's, blood work, surgery, chemo, radiation, lots of doctor visits, lots of tests, lots of tears, lots of support, millions of prayers, a bunch of loves, and a ton of blessings!
It all happened so fast. It started as Stage 3a, then quickly was upgraded to Stage 4 with HER2 positive.
Surgery- November 2, 2011
Chemo began- November 22, 2011
Gamma Knife Radiation- December 15, 2011
Shaved Head- December 17, 2011
Full Brain Radiation- January 31, 2012

And chemo, non-stop ever since!

I have had every side effect from chemo possible, including: Nausea/ vomiting, headaches, constipation/diarrhea, rash,thrush, vision loss, random sores, bleeding, hemroids, sore nose, HAIR LOSS (no eyelashes,eyebrows, or hair anywhere!) dry skin, dry mouth, crumpling sore infected nails, weight gain, appetite loss, taste buds changed, cravings, and extreme fatigue to name a few! :) But I have been incredibly blessed to not end up in the hospital with something major. My body has been continually strong and able to handle the blows.

 Through all this, I have learned or been taught:

True Love, I will never question John's love and dedication to me and our family. He has been absolutely  amazing! There is nothing he wont do for me. He has always there, going non-stop, and doing everything possible. Without him, I would be lost.

Sorrow and Strength, My kids have been through so much! They have had to grow up the last 3 years with a sick mom. They are very caring and concerned about what is happening and when I will be better. They have struggled emotionally, yet they have never left my side. They are strong, upbeat, encouraging, and loving. They are always giving me loves, kissing my bald head, asking if I feel better, willing to help, smiling at me, and wanting to be involved. I was truly blessed with these 3 unbelievable kids!

True Family Love, From day one ( literally ) My parents have always been there. The support and love they give me is unheard of. Really, they will drop anything to be there for me and my family. They take my kids, spoil them rotten, and love them unconditionally. My mom has been my chemo buddy, sitting for long hours just to be with  me. On occasion allowing someone else to take me. My sisters have all been fabulous. My friend was a little jealous, when I was in the hospital they all came running in the room with such concern, rubbing my feet, braiding my hair, rubbing chapstick on my lips, all with such love. They have taken my kids, cleaned my house, and have just been there for me, I have extended family and Johns family that have been amazing and supportive.

True Friendship, I have some amazing friends! I also live in an fantastic neighborhood, with incredible neighbors. I have been so touched by the friends from my past that care enough to contact me, visit me, and show their concern. I consider all of you new and old, TRUE friends. I cant believe how blessed I am with all of you.

Gospel, That my savior is my Rock. That no matter how I am feeling, my savior is there to bless me, help me, and listen to me. He is there to comfort me and give me strength. I have been blessed with amazing leaders. I have a great Stake President, Bishop, RS president, amazing visiting teachers, and church group. I am so grateful for the priesthood, and that John honors his. He has been able to give me several blessing that have helped strengthen me. There is nothing I can't do with their strength and blessings.

Service, You ALL have served me in one way or another. Through.. prayers, food, cleaning, donations, kids, love, taxi service,listening to me, teaching me, and the list could go on and on. I have learned through you, that you just "DO IT" You dont have to ask to help with kids, or cleaning, or to hang Christmas lights, you just "DO IT" because you can. Service always makes people smile and feel good. You wouldn't ask to save a drowning child, you would just "DO IT." THANK YOU!

I hope you know, truly how thankful I am. This last year hasn't been easy, but I can't imagine how it would have been, without every single one of you. You have made me smile and fight harder than I ever thought I could. My battle isn't over and never will be over, I plan on fighting like crazy for the next 55 years! I will constantly need your prayers, love, and support.  THANK YOU! I LOVE YOU ALL!